Why am I waiting?

It's late. I'm back in Saskatoon, contemplating my future.
I've been talking with my mother a lot lately. She tends to be a very reclusive person, but she doesn't want to be. She has great dreams and aspirations of living a life that is far more productive then the one she is living right now. She recently had a heart attack, and because of it wants to live life the way she has always wanted. Never take a moment for granted because you never know when it will be your last moment.
I keep asking her, " what are you doing to change your life?"
You see, I am a firm believer that if you want to change, or to accomplish something different, than you have to make steps towards that change. It's like having a focus; priorities; a goal or end result.
Of course, our circumstances can get in the way of us achieving our goals.
Or maybe we are afraid to change; being caught in the rut of our own existence.
And that brings me back to my future...am I doing anything to change it?
Do I want to change it?
I keep waiting for a miracle...but my fear is that God keeps waiting for me.
I am called to serve him...with that I have no question...
That's all I know...

So what am I waiting for!
What am I waiting for?
Why am I waiting?