Fading from one life to another

What do you think about? As I sit here looking at pictures from the past, I can't help think about where those pictures were taken. That's good because that's exactly what I want them to do.
But if I'm low on cash, I think about ways I can make more money. The lottery always comes to mind when that happens.
If I have a bad day at work, I think about how I can improve my situation by perhaps finding a new job.
But when it comes to spiritual matters, I usually have to force myself to think more spiritual. It doesn't come as naturally as other things. It always seems however that when I think about spiritual things, everything seems to fade out of focus and become less important. That is exactly what I want, but why do I have to leave it so long before I come to that realization...sigh...
I love my God, and how he waits for me in these uncertain times. But I must admit, I don't like myself when those times come and overwhelm me.
More of Jesus and less of me...that's what I need...